I got a friend like this!

I got a friend, but I cant tell out her name...

At the first, feel like she is a good friend,n she is a corcern, helping person...
That time, we sharing what we think, tell out our own thinking, n i still remember the time we sleep in a same bed, sharing our secret, our own different story...
Although that time we just noe each other in a very short time, but I strongly feel that we really can be good friend, but now I think it is not!

Maybe my problem, or maybe this is her real "face", just b4 I dunno.. Maybe just because she feel like I m the 1 who threaten her "position".. But I think it is nt as my result is not so good n I m nt her competitor so what she is thinking about?? Or maybe she feel like every1 should obey her n so m I?? I really dunno what she is thinking about! Y is she act like this? I m nt her enermy!

sometimes she will ignore me, always I stand beside her but she dont bother me n continue talking with others oni, n dun wait 4 me already as b4 she got.. Js call others to gone 1st n leave me behind.. So nw should I continue accept her as my frenz?

How to tell out?? She is not never bother me anymore, but sometimes will ignore me n always say something to hurt me.. say that they school ppl this n that,nt same like other school. It sounds like her school is d best, other school js.. Do she really 1 me to say something to hurt her? Actually, if really 1 2 b more arrogant,I can use my school oso.. but no nid la..

Or the reason is that b4 she still dun hav friend so she just stay with me oni, nw got fren ady so no nid me ady?? Is she b4 js going to memperalat me oni?? if like this, y I always have to take care of her feeling when I chat with my frenz as she dont do this??

Multi-ethnic Society

As a multi-ethnic society our country hav shared lots of the benefit throughout these years, we share our culture, religion, food, festival, eventhough sharing our language as we noe speak language that our race in other country dunno... It sound great,we had a unique background of our country, we understanding each other although nt vy well, tolerant and try 2 stay happily. Each ethnic hav each functions on it.. As a such country, we hav lots of benefits, but nw why these all things happen?? It is such as a catchword for nowadays...

We live peacefully all these years, although may hav problems,bt it may nt b so "biG" problem that happen these days. I wonder,if it dont solved, wat's it become?? Is it affect us?? Is it will become a unsafe country? R we still can stay with happily without worrying?? We already hav lots of crimes that make we worrying about since we staying here... still wanna 2 add more worrying?? Does it affect our economy?? Still hav other visitors willing to come to our country??

Hw cn I watch 3 movies in a night?!

yesterday js finish exam. Actually it's quite easy, if noe early, sure dun study so hard, assign more tm on mktg!

This sat will hav mktg, quite stress,scared of dunno hw 2 ans, ans wrongly..
I muz done greatly! mUZ score!!

Mayb 2day will skip class,still nt decide, I dun1 skip bt I haven't finish study, nt enough tm...

yesterday din study, really my false... going 2 do assignment bt they still dun cm then watched terrible movie v yoke foong them... then bek 2 home, all housemates watch horrible movie again n watch again,ltr watch again 2 balance the mind.. watch until mid9, NO, should b late than mid9.. haiz~~

If i took all the tm 2 study sure cn finish 1 or 2 chapter! hw would I watched all those idiot movies?! (the movies r nt idiot,js myself.. who should b blamed!)

watever i done is like a stupid things, sumtm i dunno y.. i never think properly 1st b4 i done sumthg.. i dun like it, bt i m always the person who done such fool work..

dunno y.....

Upset~~~

I m such a failure..
Dunno failure or nt... bt finally I noe that I m nt a gal that cn carrying on v too many things. Sure I hope tat I v b the 1 cn act vy well, smarter n cn done lot of things well.. Bt I m nt a superwomen,although I hope I m.. Mayb i m the flower tat take k well in protection.. it make me cant achieve the goal. Nt too high,I noe I should b achieve it, bt the reality is NO! I couldn't accept,how cm I can bcome like this??! b4, I

8 Nov 2007 ~~~ awoke nite>>

It's 2:30 in the morning,awoke by my roommate, so wake up and study. Not all bcoz of still nt finish study, a bit is feeling want 2 repay. Going 2 study since she woke me up..

Mayb nt so ethic bt this is nt the first tm,even nt 2nd or 3rd tm... Almost every night! Continuously, I will hav a insonmia! Even nw also bcoz of it then I woke up.
(dumbly) Mayb wat I done is js going 2 watse, she wont b awake as usually she sleep like a pig even dun care of alarm ringing.. Always i m the victim who always awake...

Sumtimes will think about want 2 change room or nt. No nid 2 b always disturb by others when sleep.. but where should I moved in??

Ntg 2 do bt study, dun even hv mood 2 study.. Hw good if nw hav a internet services! I shall chat a bit then continue my studies... Cant listen songs 4 a while as here hav a pig,I noe she wont b awoke bt I m nt going 2 done such thing and b so childish like her.

Outside road still hav cars b driven, luk like quite lot of owl stirabout. Feel like want 2 take a way, viewing night piece, take a glimpse of the moon or taste the cool in night... Should I go out take a walk nw?? Boggle~~

Hw 2 face him after reject him??

Last nite din sl33p well,so 2day quite nt feeling well,coughing. However, still go 2 school lol as tat day skip class 1 tm ady...

Nw, stil 1 on9 2 write down my feeling... Hehe.. "Wat's kind of ppl?? Even nt feeling well oso dun1 rest!" this is a phase tat my frenz always going 2 ask me... Mmm... actually I oso dunno wat's kind ppl tat I m. Mayb nt a ppl, a bird, a dog or a ghost!

Sumthings hausting me! Yez a frenz wooing me... N I had ... as I think tat we still nt in the stage 2 b couple... We r nt noe each other vy well.. It is too fast! u noe, nw stil nt the right tm..

Nt getting 2 noe so much on him n my "image" about him is he seem lyk a playboy! I get 2 noe sumthing about him n his ex.. Mayb tat is the reason too tat y I feel like dun1.

It is my false! I m too straight! I should b think proper 1st b4 send msg 2 him... I should done it js like b4 my another frenz's case! mayb we still can b frenz js like with my another frenz nw. Doesnt mean nw v r nt frenz anymore, js nw duno hw 2 chat v him... 2day I saw him,bt I had act like dun c him. I dunno hw 2 face v him... I scard!

her songs so nice..

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Old d~~~

After view sedandary school student profile, I get 2 noe tat I start 2 getting old ady!! maybe I m going into another category ady!! even no same as b4 like still in d 2ndary school...
feel like a bit weird... wish 2 bcome more literate,understand this world, noe hw 2 solve my problem,become more independent,BUT nw feel tat I dun1 growth!! I dun1!! dun1 other little gal cal "da jie jie",start 2 b dun understand their world n even dun "understand" their language..

Home~~

Stay at here sometimes will b miss home n sure family members..
miz mummy speak softly n caring me, miz her loudly voice when ordering me to do something bt I 4get...
Daddy will always concern about my feeling n m i hav enougn money 2 use..
the way he caring me,make me more tough when I m facing my trouble.

Now then I noe y in the spm time so difficult to pass BUT I still can hav it a bit happily n with hard n bitter. Recap sem 1,it is hard n bitter 4 me.. Stressful, loneliness(although hav frenz), sick, afraid dont noe hw 2 do in test n hav bad result.... it's a terrible dream!

It is quite the safest shelter 4 me in house.. Full with love n with protection.. nw then I noe.. It is a bit late as hav not so much time 2 stay at home..

lOst~~~

Sumtimes I will feel like dunno wat myself want.
I feel like I m such a failure.. As I even my ambition I also dunno.. I dunno wat i should choose for my course n I will feel like I m lost in the road with darkness! It is really terrible u noe.. scard 2 choose wrongly,scard of wat evryone hoping frm me..

The busy days is starting 2 come!! Damn!

Oh, sem 2 had start! And now,it's already week 3!
so fast!

sometimes just think like 1 2 b hardworking n sometimes will like lazy lazy 1..
haiz.. I had tell myself to be more hardworking in this sem! as I dun 1 the same thing happen when I m in sem 1. I had a bad result on it! Die! N it had happened becoz of my lazy behaviour. Sad! n sumetimes will think like hate myself as I asking y I dun 1 2 b hardworking!

Nw,it should b the tm 4 me 2 b "turn become a new leaf". Haha... Say like a bit serious..

I started to be more enjoy my life~~

Wow~~~ quite a long time didnt write my own blog already!!! HAha... These days become "guai" already as I dont online n waste a lot of time to online and play. Actually be4 these days, I have been do all my assignment and have a lot of exam.. Sometimes just think lyk it wont finish but what 2 do? I still have 2 take all of de exam.. Now online already,,, but didnt mean that I hav finished my exam. Now is in study week,but these few days I dont put lot effect in my study. Maybe I dont feel any stress in it!

And maybe my mindset hav been changed!

Sumtimes I js think that study and exam is not the only things in life, I still hav others in my life... I become to be caring about the ppl around me and I try to "walk" slowly... to see the view along de road.. N nw I can enjoy my life and try not to be rush to go to the destination(my set goal). I feel lyk I can relax myself. It should be a good thing!

Yet the truth thing is I cant get what I set n plan to get in my mind!! I started became giving myself reasons when I cant finish what I hav set and sumtimes js feel lyk let times go... Mum say that I become lazy already! I hav the same view too but I still wish 2 hav the life this!

Anyway, I still in my path to be more relax, get what I plan to get... I can arrive my destination in a more relaxation way. and I know I can!!

what baby r u??!

------------ ---JANUARY BABY-------- --------- ---
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Fussy. Seldom shows emotions. Takes time to
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Stubborn. Repost this in 5 mins and you will meet
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Feb




----------FEBRUARY BABY ------------ --------
Abstract thoughts. Loves reality and abstract.
Intelligent and clever. Changing personality.
Attractive. S#*iest out of everyone.
Temperamental. Quiet, shy and humble. Honest
and loyal. Determined to reach goals. Loves
freedom. Rebellious when restricted. Loves
aggressiveness. Too sensitive and easily hurt.
Gets angry really easily but does not show it.
Dislikes unnecessary things. Loves making friends
but rarely shows it. Ho?ny. Daring and stubborn.
Ambitious. Realizing dreams and hopes. Sharp.
Loves entertainment and leisure. Romantic on the
inside not outside. Superstitious and ludicrous.
Spendthrift. Tries to learn to show emotions.
Repost this in 5 mins and you will communicate with someone and realize that you are a perfect match.
Mar




------------ -----MARCH BABY ------------ --------
Attractive personality. S#xy. Affectionate Shy and
reserved. Secretive. Naturally honest, generous
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Sensitive to others. Great kisser. Easily angered.
Trustworthy. Appreciative and returns kindness.
Hardly shows emotions. Tends to bottle up
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repost this in the next 5 mins, you will meet your
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Apr




------------ ------APRIL BABY ------------ -------
Suave and compromising. Funny and humorous.
Stubborn. Very talkative. Calm and cool. Kind and
sympathetic. Concerned and detailed. Loyal. Does
work well with others. Very confident. Sensitive.
Positive Attitude. Thinking generous. Good
memory. Clever and knowledgeable. Loves to look
for information. Able to cheer everyone up and/or
make them laugh. Able to motivate oneself and
others. Understanding. Fun to be around.
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Boy/girl crazy. Loves sports, music, leisure and
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May




------------ -----MAY BABY ------------ -----
Stubborn and hard-hearted. Strong-willed and
highly motivated. Sharp thoughts. Easily angered.
Attracts others and loves attention. Deep feelings.
Beautiful physically and mentally. Firm Standpoint.
Needs no motivation. Shy towards opposite sex.
Easily consoled. Systematic (left brain). Loves to
dream. Strong clairvoyance. Understanding.
Sickness usually in the ear and neck. Good
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literature and the arts. Loves travelling. Dislike
being at home. Restless. Not having many children.
Hardworking. High spirited. If you repost this in the
next 5 minutes, you will become close to someone
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Jun




------------ JUNE BABY ------------ -
You've got the best personality and are an
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new friends and be outgoing. You are a great flirt
and more than likely have an a very attractive
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will meet someone that may possibly become
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Jul




------------ ----JULY BABY ------------ --
Fun to be with. Secretive. Difficult to fathom and to
be understood. Quiet unless excited or tensed.
Takes pride in oneself. Has reputation. Easily
consoled. Honest. Concerned about people's
feelings. Tactful. Friendly. Approachable.
Emotional temperamental and unpredictable.
Easily hurt. Witty and sparkly.
spazzy at times.
Not revengeful. Forgiving but never forgets.
dislikes nonsensical and unnecessary things.
Guides others physically and mentally. Sensitive
and forms impressions carefully. Caring and
loving. Treats others equally. Strong sense of
sympathy. Wary and sharp. Judges people
through observations. Hardworking. No difficulties
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about the past and the old friends. Waits for
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unless provoked. Loves to be loved. Easily hurt
but takes long to recover. Repost this in the next 5
mins and your reputation will boost someway in the next 12 days
Aug




------------ AUGUST BABY ------------ ---
outgoing personality. takes risks. feeds on
attention. no self control. kind hearted. self
confident. loud and boisterous. VERY revengeful.
easy to get along with and talk to. has an "every
thing's peachy" attitude. likes talking and singing.
loves music. daydreamer. easily distracted. Hates
not being trusted. BIG imagination. loves to be
loved. hates studying. in need of "that someone".
longs for freedom. rebellious when withheld or
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or "beautiful" to everyone. stubborn. curious.
independent. strong willed. a fighter. repost in 5
mins and you will meet the love of your life
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Sep




------------ *SEPTEMBER BABY* ------------ ---
Active and dynamic. Decisive and haste but tends
to regret. Attractive and affectionate to oneself.
Strong mentality. Loves attention. Diplomatic.
Consoling, friendly and solves people's problems.
Brave and fearless. Adventurous. Loving and
caring. Suave and generous. Usually you have
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oneself and others. Loves to travel and explore.
Sometimes sexy in a way that only their lover can
understand. if you do not repost this in the next 5
mins, someone very close to you will become mad
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Oct




------------ ---OCTOBER BABY ------------ -------
Loves to chat. Loves those who love them. Loves
to takes things at the centre. Inner and physical
beauty. Lies but doesn't pretend. Gets angry
often. Treats friends importantly. Brave and
fearless. Always making friends. Easily hurt but
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meet the love of your life.
Nov




------------ ---NOVEMBER BABY ------------ --------
Trustworthy and loyal. Very passionate and
dangerous. Wild at times. Knows how to have fun.
S#xy and mysterious. Everyone is drawn towards
your inner and outer beauty and independent
personality. Playful, but secretive. Very emotional
and temperamental sometimes. Meets new people
easily and very social in a group. Fearless and
independent. Can hold their own. Stands out in a
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greatest men are born in this month. If you ever
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in 5 mins & you will excel in a major event coming
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Dec




------------ ---DECEMBER BABY ------------ ---
This straight-up means ur the most good-looking
person possible... better than all of these other
months! Loyal and generous. Patriotic. Competitive
in everything. Active in games and interactions.
Impatient and hasty. Ambitious. Influential in
organizations. Fun to be with. Easy to talk to,
though hard to understand. Thinks far with vision,
yet complicated to know. Easily influenced by
kindness. Polite and soft-spoken. Having lots of
ideas. Sensitive. Active mind. Hesitating, tends to
delay. Choosy and always wants the best.
Temperamental. Funny and humorous. Loves to
joke. Good debating skills. Has that someone
always on his/her mind. Talkative. Daydreamer.
Friendly. Knows how to make friends. Abiding.
Able to show character. one guy/girl kind of
person. Loveable. Easily hurt. Prone to getting
colds. loves music. ]

My perfect partner in UTAR!! (until now)

Have stay at here about 8 weeks d.
So fast!
And I gonna to be adapt and be a part in this school-- UTAR.
Before, I m quite regret with my choice(get in to UTAR), it mean that I have to give up of many things, such as stay at home, study in local university, study with my lovely classmate and friends again, gonna crazy in secondary school (f6), taking my STPM once in life,(although it is bitten, but really, you will have a lot of sweet memories in the school life),it doesn't mean that I don't have a sweet memories in UTAR, but it's different.
Well. Stay at here quite long time, you might think it is very boring.
Coz no any entertainment..
Life wif study, assignment n exam..
Yet I able to found two great friends here and also my group members and lovely classmate lah...
They(both of them), let me describe a bit.
Mmm... Yeeyee is a top student who always care for her studies and also her homework.
As i think, a girl like her must be very very arrogent and very ego, but she is different! She is nice, can chat a lot and even can share my best moment and my secret(I mean my feeling truthly from heart) with her.
Although I know her not too longer, but I can "sense" that we can be friend longer and longer... and maybe forever... I am not sure, but I wish.
(seem like I have intuition)
Not bad not bad..
Beng Chun, a guy that is quite funny..
A banana.. (Mm.. I like 2 eat banana)
but tis banana, I prefer to bully him..
Coz he is too easy 2 bully.. hehe..
(say until myself so bad)
No la.. Js can always ask him 2 read chinese words for us..
N having such frenz,
is very nice 1..
can always argue some rubbish..
bluffing, n having some "junk talk"..

Exam + assignment = DIE!!

Today just finish my exam. Yes! can go for a short rest but still have to do my assignment.. Really a short rest only becoz afterward hav to go for another test, econ mid-term. Shit! Still not finish my studies la.. No! I should be say that I still not start my studies! oh,my godness! Already hav a lot of test,why still have to do all the rubbish Haiz...
Nw is raining leh. cant go out to eat! hav to stay in the hostel. So hungry leh... Afterward still hav to go yee's house to do assignment. dont knw how to go there,so annoying!

I think it so!

SELF CRITICISM


Lets say you and I are friends, and every day I'm telling you, “I'm so boring, I don't know why you want to be my friend! I don't know why you don't just leave.” Eventually you'll say, “Good idea!”

Maggie says, “But if I criticise myself, then I can show people I'm humble!”

Wrong! If you want to be humble, be humble. Self criticism isn't humility, it's stupidity.

People who run themselves down are irritating. They make you want to punch them in the head.

Self criticism gets on other people's nerves and it sabotages your self-image. The bad things you tell yourself take root in your subconscious. Make a deal with yourself: ”From today, if I can't think of something positive, I'll keep my mouth shut.”

You become what you think about.

p/s: when you are telling that you are that type of person,your friend will think that you are SUCH AS THAT!

Days in UTAR..

Actually,come here already 7 weeks! so fast! Actually nothing feeling.. js feel that my time is fill! Started to be more independent, know how to take care of myself, know how to tolerate with my roommate, and starting to miss all my secondary school classmate.. My loving frenz, really miss all the days in our secondary school's day. And my TWINS parter! Without you, my heart feel so "empty".. Remember the days that we eat together? sleep together,tuition together,ponteng together and even laugh together too.... (have to stop lo,if not puiyee see that and will beat me, maybe will be thown into the lake)
This is special for my 2ndary school classmate, that day u ask me how r there and now u can see how I m here and miz u here.. and I remember well eng yee say i m crazy crazy sure have no problem, just wish la.. I will cntinue my "crazy vital spark"!! but here cant find a person same like you, nobody going to be crazy with me... Wooooo....

Exam is coming....

Exam is coming and a lot of assignment is coming...... so bad! Don't knw when I can finish.... Just can tell myself finish it faster, but quite lazy to finish leh? How to finish? =.= Haiz... this sunday have starwalk too.. Just wishing that the time can pass slowly.. too many things need to do and so less time.. oh,god, give me 48 hours a day pls?! (but dont let it realise.. I will be shock!!) Haha..

Miz him....

still not forget him..... Another day already! Always telling myself that I should be forget but I cant..... I think I can let it foregone already but his 1 message can just easily pull me off!! I just a useless person, that who cannot control emotion well person. So wish to meet him but just tell myself cant miss him and forget about him. As it is no point to like him. It is not worthy! For a person like him..... Every time meeting him will bring a lot of pain to me, wish together with him but I know cant as he is not a good enough person. Not suitable for me and his target, dream and the road he had choosen is not the same as me. I know... Just telling myself it will be pass... I believe......

A night that r not willing to sleep.

Just feeling so regret as I never study today... online and chatting all the day long.. Today nothing special but just feel like I m too playful this a few days. And not going to sleep until now... Maybe because my housemate and roommate r not here. Therefore feeling too lonely and not willing to go sleep. Actually I wishing for a quiet night everyday today since my roommate is a bit ego, but it is too different now.. Maybe another reason, that is because of tommorrow are going there also, that is why not willing to sleep.. now is midnight already, feeling too hungry now,but not planning to take supper. Maybe should take it now... My neighbour is playing hip hop song now and I m thinking that I need not to sleep already. Oh, the song of "god is a girl" is playing too loud, how can they do like this?!!

Hate!!!!

So hate!!! I m quite blur about what the lecturer is talking about!!! It is just half and half only while my friend look like understand all of it... Why i m so stupid??? Maybe of I cant pay all the attention in my class gua... but it will b ok,I know... I can recover it not long time afterward...
xynzi,gAMbaT3h!!!

1st of the day!!!!

yeah! Finally i can sign up it! Actually,this is not my 1st blog... but the before 1 I delete it already!! so sad..... but it is ok, since i promise myself that I will hard to write it on....