Sunday, February 24, 2008

15 Feb ~~ So dependent I m

1st tm 4 taking a bus alone, I hd past the station that I should get down. N continuosly cm 2 a strangle place, less ppl. It is quite terrible n the worst is my hp has NO battery. I dunno wat should do n feel vy helpless. D sky is going 2 b darker n night is coming. Restless. ask 4 sumbody help?? No idea.. mayb js cn ask d bus driver.

After asking, then take another bus 2 go bck 2 d center. Muz b vy awake although feel vy sleepness, coz really scard 1 more tm past d station.

After arrive, d 1st thing is buying another new battery. Take another bus 2 bck. That tm really calm d, listen sum music n reset my mind. As i noe even lost I cn seek 4 help coz this bus will send me 2 usj. An area that I more familiar n surely cn get bck.

B4 I m too dependent on my dad n mum, nw they r nt here then it cn seem that I m quite dependent. Nvr taking bus, evn go 2 near place they v send me there. When having any problems, they v be solve it in d 1st period. I m too dependent n nt enough strong 2 take care of myself. Cant live js like other normal person. evn taking a bus alone will make me feel scard. Y I cant js live like a normal person? I should try.

Mayb it is d reason y I always being bully, as I m nt enough strong.. bt I will train myself. 1 days ltr, I cn b independent n no more being bully...

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