Dad, I m sorry..

Since I was small, u had put all the hope on me…

I still rmb what u teach me in my standard 2.. and I still rmb the time u holding my little hands and bringing me 2 take a walk. Everytm, we will walk until area that plant with coconut trees along the road. Wht u taught me I m still able 2 recap on it..

U put a lot of hopes on me, teach me all d things tat I should noe patiently.. It is nt easy 2 teach a left-handed child 2 writing bt u did it.. I get 2 noe lots of d words both in alphabet and Chinese. U always forgive me as I use chopstick with left hand although elders don’t like me to do that..

In my standard 2 , u r on the way of teaching me standard 3 syllabus.. And maybe that’s y I can get champion in my quizes and academic competitions.

U r such a great father yet I m nt a great daughter.. I do always disappointed u.. I fail 2 pass the PTS exam n I need 2 study standard 4 bt nt straightly to standard 5..

U wish I get a good result in my science subject bt I always disappointed u..
In my UPSR, ths 2 god, I manage 2 get A 4 my science subject n get the others A’s in my subjects. N I think I did proud u…

However, I may get straight A in my PMR bt I cant.. I m bad in my science.. I noe u r sad when I tell u tat time.. U seek a teacher to teach me 1 to 1 and wish tat I could score in my science yet I did not.. I never think what’s wrong if my science subject is bad.. Yes, just like what u hv said, I m bad in science n don’t hv a good basis 4 it, but what is d matter if I don’t 1 work in the science environment? I never planned 2 be a doctor, pharmacist o nutrient……

I continue what I think in my form 4.. I never planned 4 my future and let it be what should be in the future time.. N sum more u may planned 4 me in everything..
Form 5, I even take my account and art like what a art stream student will did.. I put lot of effort in both of these 2 subjects n ignore my science subject..
After graduate, I started understand wht u always tell me since I was young.. I try 2 take tuition for science subjects in my form 5 holidays.. Friends all hv go out 4 work o play but I didn’t..

I promise I will try hard 2 get A in form 6 n be a pharmacist in d future..
However, it is funny enough.. I get all the A’s in SPM but nt science subjects.. Surely I noe I din put effort on it tat’s y I get Pass oni for them..

Dad, finally u hv give up.. I m a failure.. I get what u mean by bt it is too late..
“As what I wish before”, FINALLY I m nt needed 2 study science subjects..
I still rmb what u tell me, “Choose the subject what u prefer, don’t worries about others, even money, it is nt a big enough matter..”

Dad, I really sorry.. I never heard what u tell me n I always hate u when u force me 2 study it.. But nw it is no chance 4 me 2 hate u coz I will not study in science..
I never specifically wish that I could be js a one of them .. I never think tat I could be an art student, I js noe if I take bio, I will try best 2 get pharmacist o nutrient course and if in physic I may try 2 get actuarial course.. but nw I m struggling… I don’t know what I wish 2 be in future..

Be an accountant or a great businesswoman is what I dream for bt nw I m nt strong to keep myself to achieve my way..