What I planned to do now??

Oh great! Finally my sem break have come!

Exam have been finished! Yet my heart pro is still here. It make me a bit worry as the report haven come out.．It make me remember that day in the hospital．I didn't heard what the doctor is explaining about exactly n day dream at there, but when he say "BLOOD TESTING", it make me awoke! Then I use a vy pity eye sign look at my dad, " please, don't do the test k?".
My dad know I m scare yet he is worrying. He tell me softly, " you can do it rite?"
I really want to cry at that moment~~ TT

How can they do so cruel thing on me??! Dad should be know that I scare of injected!! I even will hide under the table when I m small.

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Well, let's talk about what I will do in this super long semester break.
It has a long of planning yet I don't know what really should I take. I might go for a part time job as I want to gain some experience of work at outside. I am being protected. Surely it is not a bad thing. However, I can't experience what suppose have like my friends. Lots of friends say you are just being too comfort. That's why u will say such words. I am not! I want to be stronger. So I have to have more training and practical. I am being too weak. Always, I need protection.
When nobody is going to save me, I will be die! Because I know nothing! I don't wish one day it will be happen, I want survive.

Later on, I planned to go for a swimming trainning or gym. I have to train my staminal back. As now I m impossible to run more than an hour. It is my limited now! Impossible I will get tired in 1 hour time before! I must be hard work, I wanna get back to my team. Now, I know what I suppose in, I can't run away from it! That is my team!

Before, I always say want to do this, want to do that, but always, I fail to completed it. But now, I will not. Well, what is having in my mind is that I must take my own responsibility. I shouldn't always depends on who ever. I m not still a little girl le.. I m 19 now! ( as I just have my 19 years old bufday) So just go! Go to the destination what I want! Never afraid of anything! I am not so weak! I know I can! Because I m Xynyao!!